my negative tone continues to grow, and lately I don't really care. I don't want to try and make things all good and just peachy because that's just not how I feel.
Lately I just feel mean and annoying.
I feel bugged and very rude.
I would rather just sleep.
And dream of things I can't have, and go to places I'll never see.
And I could always see my two old bestfriends. One who clearly has completely abandoned me, only me, and the other I couldn't tell you where the fuck he might be.
And I'm so sorry, my negative pours out all over your sensitive little self.
I treat you like crap, over and over and over. And why?
I don't know.
Do I care?
I don't know.
I feel badly every time I hear the tone in your voice sink lower into a something miserable. And I do hate to be the cause of it.
I hit you when you are hurt. I hear your complaints and I am the only one who could make your spirits lift, but I don't even try.
Maybe I am just disfunctional.
Maybe I just don't even know how to love a person besides my disgusting self.
Maybe I am just really self centered and am at a period in my life that I really could not care any less.
I do care. So maybe I am simply just a liar.
I lie.
But:
I am so angry with you.
I am so annoyed and fed up with you.
Kiss my hand again.
I don't really think your opinion matters.
come back!! PLEASE!
honestly, Luke, you are the only person I have wanted to actually talk to in the longest time. Even if it was just for five minutes, I would give anything to just let everything out on you.
WHY AREN'T YOU HERE?
I ask to many questions that will always remain unanswered.
Why do I do that?
