Monday, January 19, 2009

CA to NC, or FL, or whatever.

it's been going on for over the past 6 years or so, talk to leaving.
I guess I am ready to go. It's not set but it seems to be more of a yes. My friends are already devastated and I feel for them, but I am sure a few of them wouldn't mind leaving either. I see Chelsea and hear her voice and how happy she actually is across the country, a complete change. 
but maybe I don't want to change everything.
I have so many perfect things here. Things I would want to bring with me, people I would want to take with me.
I would hate to leave about...four of them behind. Another one if he ever decides to come back.
but what is left here? The graduates of 2010 will be going away to college, it won't be highschool anymore. 
So whether I am here or not, in every place there will be drastic changes. 
Things have been changing since last year.
Luke disappears without a word.
Chelsea moves across country.
boy after boy after boy, until Marco is here to stay.
What will happen when I'm gone?
It's still not set in stone, my parents wanting to move well yes, that is set in stone.
Senior year. A new school. A new state. A new life?
That's tough, who knows if I can handle it. And I'm not really the type of person to be able to handle things. (People who have seen or heard me cry know what I'm all about.)
I'll go, but I won't really be leaving.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I'd actually enjoy moving to a different state, not because I want to leave my friends behind, but to gain new experiences and meet new people. If they are your friends, then you will stay in contact. You're very easy to like Anabel, I promise. You'll make friends wherever you go, and you're not leaving those people behind, you're just adding more great people to your life. Don't worry.